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Shifting Away From Shame: The Aftermath of Rape

In three words I can sum up everything

I’ve learned about life: it goes on.

                                                        ~Robert Frost

If this is your first glance at, and if you haven’t visited our Facebook page, I welcome you to a wall of words that offer hope, support and the beginning of a shift. A positive, purposeful shift away from any shame you felt was directed at you or shame internalized in the aftermath of rape, toward building and redirecting the focus of your life. Here at you will find information that fosters living well. The goal is to encourage you to embrace life in the midst of any reality following the crime of rape–no matter what feelings or situation you are experiencing now.

“What is it about me? Why would a stranger, friend, family member, or acquaintance commit such a painful betrayal on me?”

Our Unshame Campaign is critically needed because shame frequently and profoundly effects many women, men and children who have endured sexual assault. Shame impacts the decision to disclose, report, and seek counseling and support. Shame has been studied, defined and summarized from a variety of cultural perspectives. It has been viewed as a social mechanism to control behavior (Brene Brown’s TED talk, “Listening to Shame”) as well as the means for processing stress into self-punishment.

Perhaps, the starting place for is to address the notion of what IS shameful behavior. I can tell you what shame isn’t: Shame is not the hemline of a dress, the inexperience of a person who trusts someone, or the choice to consume alcohol. The behavior that is rightfully shameful is arrogant, selfish and predatory behavior directed at a victim to force a sexual encounter.

“I think, therefore I am.”


“Having been raped, therefore I am not?”

                              ~a Survivor of Sexual Battery

At first, the shock of rape may be too much to accept. Many victims feel a profound sense of disbelief. Some even question whether the rape really happened. Feeling numb and disconnected for a period of time is not uncommon. It is natural to feel dazed and uncertain about “what is normal” and what you should do or feel in the aftermath. People understand something most powerfully through direct experience.

Having experienced rape, you are familiar with how it has impacted your mind, body and spirit. The experience of being raped can also deeply wound your self-perception. You may strive to feel better afterwards — to feel in control, confident or enthusiastic. Yet, emotional upheavals and feelings of powerlessness may arise unexpectedly despite your intentions. Recurring thoughts about shame and the accompanying anxiety and stress can deprive and disrupt sleeping, eating, socializing and concentration. Because rape is the most horrific form of human betrayal, for some people detaching from and disconnecting from life is a natural response to experiencing and reliving rape.

A sense of powerlessness combined with the emotional upheaval that follows can shake your confidence. Emotions can be intense and unpredictable and may fluctuate, resurfacing when triggered by reminders of the rape or perpetrator. Experiencing something this traumatic can depress your “life force”– the natural energy and desire we all possesses to live full and engaging lives. However, our life force and desire for life is still present. We demonstrate and direct this “innate energy” in our efforts to protect our psychological selves and our bodies.

Our life force, perhaps damaged, is also present in our endeavors to be involved in meaningful relationships throughout life. Surviving a rape is a life-changing event. The ensuing emotional and physical reactions are erroneously considered” controllable” when in fact the only control you have over thoughts or feelings is how, when, where and with whom you express them.  Your feelings though, whatever the onset, range, intensity, or duration, will occur and subside. They may or may not coincide with what we wish to feel! Feelings sometimes match our circumstances and sometimes they do not.

So what is the most practical approach to living with intense feelings? Although we would rather experience certain emotions and avoid others, we must learn to not judge whatever we feel. We then know what pain is. What love is. What sadness is. What life is. And this latitude towards emotions enables us to more fully engage in life in all of its forms and possibilities… because all emotions make us more “in touch” human beings. By being fully engaged we survive the brutal and re-experience the beautiful moments in life.

Life is merciful  because “now” changes.

For weeks or months after being raped, your daily life may “look” normal to an outsider, but you may feel anything but normal. It may be marked by a heightened sense of vulnerability, fear, shame, anger or hopelessness.

Our feelings and thoughts signal what we are paying attention to. Recovering from rape does not happen with avoidance, retreat, prayer or wishful thinking alone. The optimal approach begins with accepting a painful reality: You were raped. With practice and effort, you can refocus your attention away from the exclusive and hurtful actions of the perpetrator and direct your attention and energy towards attending to and meeting the responsibilities that reflect your life goals now. Living without over-attaching to a painful past is possible.

Where does the guidance for living well presented on come from?

The focus of the guidance that is offered at is drawn from many sources. Morita Therapy, a therapy and life way designed by Dr. Shoma Morita (1874-1938) and the articles and books written by Dr. Brian Ogawa (Walking on Eggshells, A River to Live by) are the two primary sources of guidance for the Unshame movement. Unshame is both grateful and honored to share the lifelong contributions and work of Dr.Ogawa in its postings. For additional information on Morita Therapy, the books and articles by Brian Ogawa and Peg Levine listed here are most helpful.